Haven't posted in a while, need help with drug problem...

Last Friday I tried cocaine for the first time..I did it untill Saturday morning (at a party) and then went home and slept untill Saturday night..got up and started again..This has been going on since then..I get about 5 hours of sleep between "sessions"...I don't know what to do..I know I shouldn't be doing this but I can't stop.. I had been battleing depression, axiety..etc.etc for a very long time, 6 years to be exact. I finally went to a pychiatrist and got put on Lexapro.. Up untill I got on Lexapro I hadn't even thought about touching any drug b/c my family has serious addictions to meth, and alchol.. I don't know what to do. I don't want to go back to the doc but I started smoking pot two weeks ago also and I don't feel right if I'm not on something. I can't go off the Lexapro b/c I can't function without it. Literally. I have already tried (before starting up on drugs), and after 3 days I was completly out of control, I was crying then hitting walls, just literally out of control.. I can't even think straight. I haven't sleep all night and it's 9 am..

Go to your therapist...she will help more than any of us board members.

I was kind of hoping someone that had gone through a similar situation could give me some advice.. I really don't want to go back to the therapist..I took conseling for a while but it didn't help..I just felt worse after talking about my problems.. Therapy day got to be a "lay in be and cry for 2 days"

The lexapro helped..I am able to control my emotions now whereas before if I got upset over something small it turned into a catastophy..

I want to just "stop" taking the drugs but it's like, I've never felt so good.. I know it's wrong and as I sit and think about all the reasons I shouldn't do it I still snort the next line..Like I said, I started smoking pot again 2 weeks ago and did cocaine for the first time Friday..It's only Wednesday but since Friday I have done it everyday with about 4-6 hours of sleep in between.. It's like it took me over or something.. I just am so confused..

I know doing drugs makes you feel good...i've done them. im clean now. have been for almost 3months. i snorted, smoked, popped all sorts of things...i did for 2 years about. in march i over dosed for completley different reasons but was still on drugs...when i was sent to a mental hospital, they told me to keep up w/ what i was doing if i wanted to but id be dead before i was 25-30 and im 15 almost 16 now... then i started dating my bf and everything changed. my outlook on life changed. it is a self decition...either you wana live or you wanna die. if you need anything else pm me.

Ive bin in a similar situation and im telling you get off the drugs i had so many problems because of them and also because others in my family do them my mother does speed and one day shez fine the next shez beeting the shit outta me so drugs dont do good okay youll end up in a worse way kk..peace

Look, you feel trapped in this habit right? Just stop...with enough willpower you can, seriously! Sometimes you might need help to get you off and it owuld be just a little shove to help you get going. AND talk to someone! If you have been battling depression ect. you really need to sit down and spill your guts. Talking to someone can help sooooooooo much, believe me.
I've been out of conrtrol too...Not Fun. It can be so hard to function sleep and even think or speak... but i think getting off the drugs can and will probibly help you. Talk to someone and try to sort through things....and try not to get into the whole addiction habit of drugs....quitting is worth it.

I'm a recovered cocaine addict. With experience, I am saying... Bob is unbelievably correct. I promise you, therapy can help this.