Why are you depressed, how do you solve it?

The reasons I’m depressed is one because my father does not love me, my autistic brother he wanted to put up for abortion and when my mother was pregnant with me he punched her in the stomach and chucked her down the stairs. He also took me back to a school I got bullied at (when I was young) just to be Spiteful towards my mother who took me out of the school without telling him. He never sends me Christmas or birthday cards, I put my hopes up (foolish) only to be pushed back down...
I also got sexually abused from the age of about 8 till 13, and I feel its my fault, I told me mum about what happened about a month ago (I’m 14 now) and ever since everything has gone wrong, I’m sorry...
Also all the coursework at school, with everything I’m really falling behind.. That’s putting me down..
Then there are people at my school who threaten me and beat me up because I’m different and they call me a Goth, I’m me (even though I don’t like it), I wish they would stop with the labels...

Can you please tell me how to deal with this...

i really need someone to tell me what to do..
because im real lost... and just need help..
im thinking of starting to cut.....

my problems are most probably nothing compared to some... so i feel a little bad..

can you please tell me why you are depressed and how you solve it...

i really need to know how to solve it..

email me at babigurl2335@hotmail.com ... i can give you my view on it.. and help you the best i can hope to hear from you hun..
*Ashley*

hey im sorry things have been so bad for u. and u for 1 should never feel like u did nething wrong. because u cant help how others have treaded u and the best way i can say to deal with it is just not give ne1 who has hurt your time. thats seeing u thinking about them nething. just dont bother with them dont let them keep hurting u. dont cut over them or die over them cus they doesnt disever your time. your life is yours to live and be in control of and be happy with. dont let ne1 take that away. u have to do what u want to be happy. if u wanna talk to me send me an email or something u can through me pro bye stay stong
~kathleeny~

unkown pls dont start cutting, u wont be able to stop, pls dont, itll be the worst decision of ur life. xxxxx

well i read your replys, and yeh ive been thinking about the cutting thing, thinking i aint got the guts... but i need something to get it out, and when im real angry or sad i know i can do it....
and as you said please dont start you may not be able to stop, who said i did want to stop, who said i didnt wanna to do it untill i died... well one reason i want to do it, its just i want everything to go away, i want to stop thinking about my lame problems, and if im gone i will forget about them and i wont be selfish.... but then theres my family, im not sure what would happen, i mean im not allowed to go to the police or else i will rip my whole family apart and i dont think it would be the biggest think if i was gone, then at least there is nothing else that can happen, if i cut and cut till nothing of me is left, maybe i will be happy again....
well thats a maybe, its just how im feeling right now... is the egde of a knife the answer, you tell me.... but even though i tell myself not to do it, im sick with myself, i wanna punk all me up (if that makes sence - i just feel so sick)... i do tell myself its not the answer but somehow i still think it is...