very very confused

i went out wif dis lad 4 ages we never kised or anyfin and he didnt have very gud looks n i decided its best if we stay m8s coz i didnt really wana boifrend at da moment , but we tlk on msn all da time n he was tlkin 2 me m8 da ofa day n now der goin out n doin stuff together n me n him had argument , n i cut my self again (i now ddat sounds sad but it aint da main reason i cut) n dey wernt small etheir (look at my profile) but i dono wot to do i now he shud move on but we m8s n i like dat but hes ignorin me , im confused very confused i dono wot to do help , luvlidxxXxx , ps i dono y im postin dis nyway o welll god nows !!!!!?????!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry was it the text talk?!?
well me and this boy had been goin out for ages , we had never kissed or done anthing and he wasnt good looking. so i decided to break up and be nates , but then we went out agin and i dumped him agian.we always talk on msn and the other day i let him do joint conversation with my mate , and now all he does is tslk bout her , he is going to ask her out and stuff. well yestaerday we had argument and i enedid up cutin myself againi did it real bad , look at my profile (i dont normaly do it becouse of boys)i dont now what to do i dont to lose him as a mate , but i cant stand him at the moment . i dont know what to do i dont even see the point in writn this , but owell
lve lidxxXxx