very very confused

i went out wif dis lad 4 ages we never kised or anyfin and he didnt have very gud looks n i decided its best if we stay m8s coz i didnt really wana boifrend at da moment , but we tlk on msn all da time n he was tlkin 2 me m8 da ofa day n now der goin out n doin stuff together n me n him had argument , n i cut my self again (i now ddat sounds sad but it aint da main reason i cut) n dey wernt small etheir (look at my profile) but i dono wot to do i now he shud move on but we m8s n i like dat but hes ignorin me , im confused very confused i dono wot to do help , luvlidxxXxx , ps i dono y im postin dis nyway o welll god nows !!!!!?????!!!!!!!!!!!