How your life can change in one second

This happened to me back in June but I am only feeling the full extent now. Basically I was at a park and presumably a guy or someone I did not even see punched me in the face. I was bent over my bag at the time. I woke up otherwise untouched with my possessions still there about 15 to 20 minutes later. An old man and a youngish woman had put me on a bench and tried to clean up the blood. I had my lip torn open and your lips really bleed like a tap.

I was taken to hospital and for the next few days I just felt sore but mentally I felt fine. Three months on physically I can walk a short distance only, I cannot bend over without passing out, all movement otherwise exhausts me in no time at all. Running, biking driving are all dreams in the past now. I will never be able to fly because the nausea and dizziness make it impossible. Taking the lift is like a head rush you would not believe.

Mentally I am mush; its more a fatigue than being retarded. I sleep about 12 hours a day more than I did before the concussion. Any tasks take three times as long and totally exhaust me now. I have post concussion syndrome and I am getting worse as time goes on. I have worked in a bank the last decade but now I will never work again.

I have a German girlfriend who lives in the states currently who means the world to me. Last night I told her she needs to find some new who sees her like I do but can share a life fully with her. As you could imagine it was extremely emotional and in the end I had to cut her off the phone I could not take anymore.

I believe I have done the right thing. What worries me most is Sheri has thyroid cancer but is the sort of person who keeps her problems to herself. Ironically I have had to cope with severe depression over the last decade. Now I find real joy at the little things in life. I just wish there was someway to have included Sheri without having to have her nurse me for the rest of my life.

Nothing is easy...least of all letting go.....

I am glad you survived your ordeal.

Life is hard and fun. Look at it that way. And BE glad that you survived. It was never going to be easy. Do what you CAN do, theres nothing you can do about what you can't so might as well not give it much thought.