If Only They Could See Through My Eyes

*Sorry I had to put this latest poem of mine here because I tried submitting it and it kept telling me there is too many spelling mistakes when there isn't so here it is if you have time to read it that is...*

If Only They Could See Through My Eyes

All this pain I uphold,
It’s dragging me down,
I’m alone in this world and they don’t understand,
The fear that I hold inside.

My world is full of pain and hurt,
My heart withers inside me.
Broken from this hurt I bare,
I am lost; I can’t be freed.

If only they could see through my eyes,
Maybe they could understand,
How alone this darkness makes me feel,
I’m beating myself up inside.

Dark memories shroud my mind,
The past is eternally cruel,
Not being able to learn what went wrong.
I’m running away from it all.

I didn’t even have a dream,
Or even have an inkling of what they mean.
I guess I only ever wanted one thing,
To know what it’s like to love another being.

If only they could see through my eyes,
Maybe they could understand,
My hidden world that I call home,
It’s the only place that I can hide.

Away in hiding I am falling now,
I need to find comfort inside my soul.
I hold myself real tight,
In hope that I can lighten this despair.

I’m tearing up inside,
These tears I shed hold no meaning,
These feelings I can’t seem to explain,
I’m blinded, not knowing what to do.

If only they could see through my eyes,
Maybe they could understand,
That life is always a struggle,
When your broken up inside.

I can’t seem to find myself,
I am a prisoner, bound to darkness,
Unable to scream and shout,
I’m afraid that no one will hear.

It seems like years have passed,
This darkness still continues to haunt me,
Silencing me, I can’t tell what I feel inside,
It’s a secret that must be kept.

If only they could see through my eyes,
Maybe they could understand,
That no matter how hard I try to see this all through,
I return to where I once began.

If only I had known, that warm feeling inside,
The kind you get from another,
Maybe my world won’t seem so dark
It would finally seem brighter.

The path I yearn for can’t be found,
I given up searching,
It’s hopeless I’ve already tried,
I have lost my way.

If only they could see through my eyes
Maybe they could understand.
That all I seek is a hand to hold,
I need some guidance along the way.

I need to find what is I am searching for,
I’ve wished with all my might and it hasn’t come true.
Do I wish again or let it all go,
There’s no way, I can’t seek, so it will never be found.

I don’t know where to go from here,
I want to get up but I’m being held back,
I’m enchained to these feelings,
I can’t make it all, go away.

If only they could see through my eyes,
Maybe they could understand,
That all this pain and hurt I feel inside,
Won’t be gone until some one sets me free.

I just wish they’d understand the pain I’ve been through,
I need someone to understand me and take all the pain away.
I can’t live another day without the help of someone.
Before I can see this all through I need guidance along the way,
So I can begin a new day.