All Cutting, self harm threads - post here #10

This is where posts about cutting belong, either experiences, helpful hints or just sharing...

and please do not disrespect this thread......the cutting I am referring to is self harm, anything other than that will be penalized....Thank you

I used to cut... and now I think I am beging to fall back into the hobby of cutting again... I can not remember what I need to do to not cut anymore... Help...

I used to cut too...i havent for 3 months...yey me! once in awhile tho i get the need that i should cut...i just think oh just one more time but then i think of something else and dont...its still on my mind tho...

I've been a cutter for over 5 years....I've stopped for a few weeks though....trying not too scar up my body any more than i have.
To stop you have to have enough willpower...try to take your mind off it when you feel like cutting again...go for a walk or try some activity. Number 1 is get rid of the item u use to cut. Stopping can be hard bu the scars it leaves you with stay forever!

Yup they do...the scars...i agree ^ get rid of the item(s) you use to cut...that will help you out TREMENDUSLY...(lol sorry...idk how to spl and i wanted to sound smart) i've also cut for 5 years...it is very hard to stop but like ^ said...it takes willpower...im still trying...difficult difficult...i tell yah.

Well i have not been cutting for like 2 months now yay me...and i agree with u guys there it does take a lot of willpower to like stop cutting...yup and i also have scars on my arms where i use to cut but its a good thing i dont anymore which is a good thing and hopefully this time i wont go back to cutting...

I started cutting tonight! I can't stop...maybe i'm losing my mind!

Ive been cutting since i was thirteen,I went years without cutting but somehow i always find my way back under a blade.And i am a pretty solid guy, no one would have any reason to think i was a cutter.

Yah, i started cutting when i was 10 and just recently quit...{{3months}}...I hated myself...still kinda do...i've always been a screw up...

I first got the idea to cut myself from the movie thirtheen.. i thought it would be cool and maybe just maybe make me feel a little better... i started on my leg and the first time i ever cut my wrist i felt so ashmed i just ran and hid... it didnt help with the teachers all giving me looks... things started to get more and more worse at school i was getting in fights and getting supended heaps... my arm was a bloody mess.. it wasnt until i really sat down and had a good talk with my teacher (one i could say i could really trust) and he helped me through.. the looks i got made me feel like crap and the name caling.. theres still days now i just wana pick up the blade and drag it along my skin so i never have to feel a thing but then i remember how everyone made me fell and i think one minute of pleasure isnt worth weeks of bulling so i have just faded away..

I think the reason i started to cut was because i feel so much pain inside i need to feel pain on the outside. I feel so much better when i cut, when people say it doesn't help they have no idea.

At school i am one people call a freak but i really don't care, people say things all the time, but i have no other way really, i draw, paint, and write. but when i have bad days because of school, the blade is my comfort.

i don't cry anymore, when I'm sad(which is all the time) i think about how pathetic i am i can't stand myself. i know i am so messed up in the head, but i don't want to change. even though i cut that is apart of who i am, and i have been doing it for four years.

Everybody's reason for cutting is different, but mostly its because you feel numb and empty inside.
noone will ever understand your reasons for cutting, even though i cut, i will say one thing.. it is wrong, we shuldnt do it.. it hurts other people more than ourselves, and as much as we think it helps, it doesnt in the long run.. i havnt cut in 3 weeks now.. and i dont think its the end of it, at all... because i no when i get really really down, you get an urge to cut... but the scars dont help, they are just a reminder that the pain is, and always will be there.... if u want to talk to someone about it...you can talk to me..
but please, please dont end your life, no matter what you think, everybody is special to someone.
and u will be ending a beautiful thing, life

hey hey we all no the saying LIFES A BITCH...and we all no its true... but live it..and u can say uve conquered it... u beat the trap.... you lived thru it...

well, if u feel like u want or need to talk to me...pm me..

mwa xxx
[p.s] stay safe

I've been cutting for 4 years. It has been about a month since the last time. I've been in and out of hospitals for it and it is definately not worth it. I do not regret it one bit because my scars are like my own language I can understand them and know thaat those feelings were once sooo real. God the urges ever fade. I've gone months without cutting and there hasn't been a day I haven't thought about it. Get piercings instead they look cooler and still hurt =P I'm here if any body need a friend. Life's hard and unbearable but as long as you can take it a day at a time you can make it take care rachel <3

I have been cuttin 4 1/2 yrs.. i regret it everyday..doesnt mean ive stopped... you need to realise that it doesnt get any better, it doesnt help anything.... im bein a hypocrit i no... but those scars ur tlkin bout... they just remind u about ur pain..

"Life's hard and unbearable but as long as you can take it a day at a time you can make it "
well if u really believe that rachel...then take it a day at a time... and be free from cuttting.. i no how hard it is...i really do....

stay strong... and keep fighting the battle of life
mil xx

Your not loosing ur mind...the feeling u get wehn u cut..takes over you

I dont cut because of emotional problems, I do it because I get a kick out of pain. I only do it when Im mad, so I guess technically it has to do with emotional concepts. How do you stop cutting though? Do you just have to go cold turkey or is there a 12 step process I can go through?

Some people have other habits tht they do instead of cutting......like writing..listening to music........and then there are some things you could do like walking, elastic band method and stuff like tht. no matter how you try to quiet youll most likely have relapses. tht jus happens to everyone who is trying to stop doing something tht has become a habit, it doesnt mean you wont ever stop. you have to want to stop.

I think habbit is a bad word for it because habbits can generally be stopped and or more easily controlled. cutting is more of addiction expcially for the people who have emotional reasons for it. saying its just a habbit is minimizing its devastation because as a addiction it causes devastion for urself and althoughs around you. i kno this becuase all the therapist and docotrs i have seen have been telling me this crap for 7 years. samething in the hospitals and every where u go they will tell you the same thing. in order to stop you really have to want it. like that ^^^^ said of course u will have urges and they can be a mother. yeah i sit with whatever i use sometimes for hours and hours debating on if its worth it. but u gotta develop the willpower to say no and there are so many other things to do and different ways to deal with whatever it is. ikno its hard and it probably is going to get alot harder than any easier for most of us. cuz as an addiction its a life long battle. but im sure that if any one can come here to talk about they can find the strength and be strong enough to fight it. and yeah maybe we give in but as long as the next time maybe we can fight it if only for a moment more than before we are getting better. for the longest time it was massive amounts everyday then maybe one time i fought it and was distracted even if for a moment it generally builds until you can do it and control it. but thats just what i think and sometimes i feel like no one cares what i think here or in my life but i put my twosense in anyway

If you cut and go over it in red before it bleeds, you can convince yourself that it is just the ink running and that it will all wash off.

MO ... theres not alot u can do... either just stop it completly, cold turkey..and get into some more activities, to distract yourself from cutting.... or dont stop completly...but you can go and get professionaly help..or just go in and see a counsellor.... and talk about WHY u get mad....not why u cut... coz seriously if they no u cut..they can take u away in a freakin straight jacket....no sh** ... u can turn to friends...and people u trust for advice.... and for a chat
thats about it...i think
mil xx

I just started cutting. i dont know why but the feeling feels good to me. Its like the pain i've been holding is runs down my wrists in the blood. Yea it sounds stupid but its so true....I have issues.

I usually come here to give people advice... but...

i really need help, i need someone to talk to...
everything that i ever wanted is falling apart right now... and i dont kno what to do!!!

I am osrry to hear that Sandra, if you wish to talk please feel free to message me.

Hey if you need anyone to talk to feel free to message me too....

Thnx u guys

Lately, i have felt empty and numb inside, i dont value my life, and i wish for it to end.
i dont want to cut anymore,i just want to end my miserable life

the problem is, my whole life seems to be getting better, mum has stopped shovin needles uo her arms, and there are heapsss less fights, i should be happy, but instead .... i feel completly empty inside.

arg i dont no what to do

yes yes herd it all before, see a counsellor, see a doctor, get help...blah blah...
i dont really no wot to do, how to do it,

AND I HATE HOW, YESTERDAY I GOT TOLD...I CONTROL THE WAY I FEEL

i think it s absolute bulls*** .... i want to be happy, i dont want to feel like this anymore.
if i could make myself happy..i would

but its past that point
oh god now im rambeling, opk better go
thanks for hearing my winge :S

mil xx

Hey if you need to talk feel free to message me...And let me tell, you your life does have value! If things seem to be getting better...maybe everything will keep improving.

Okay...I have posted many times on other thread numbers..I check in on these threads every once in a while... Lets see, there is a whole site devoted to this very subject, it gives tips on how to quit, information...etc

http://self-injury.net/

Really it is an addiction just like any drug. I have been cutting god lets see about 4 or 5 yrs.. I dunno its hard to remember. I have tried to quit numerous of times. It never worked. I quit for months at a time but I still go back. I think the longest I have gone has been 8mths. I have tried ever method in the book. I have read numerous books about it, psychology theories on it, etc... I can't completely stop. I try and I try but my trying goes unnoticed. My psyche I believe is clinging to it for dear life. I'm not mentally ready to give it up.. and I know one day I will be able to...Its just not now. So, there is hope for me somewhere.... lol Anyways you can pm if you have any questions or anything.

I have been cutting for 3 years and was surprised to see the number of people in my school that do aswell. i dont agree that it is the best to do but i completely understand how addicting it is and that it seems to be the one pain in my life that i can control. Everyone who reads this before cutting remember this site is full of people going through exactly what you are try talking to one of them then if you still need to watch for important viens and becareful.

"My psyche I believe is clinging to it for dear life."

That is exactly what happens and not just cutters experience it. I have been a cutter for 18 years. You get used to life being a certain way and it becomes your norm, whether it is good or bad. Change is scary, even if it is beneficial, but it is also possible if you really want it.

Yeah, when u need to cut, u need to cut i found that taking the tools away just makes the need to cut grow.
I've been cutting for about 7 months on and off I ner reall got into it before sounds weird but now i luv my knife and scissors.
Only prob with me is cutting in one place all the time, I've dented my skin :(

Ive done it for two years now. i tried to stop so many time but i cant the last time i did it was a week ago im tryin so hard but i just feel alone i need sumone to just talk to

Ive been doing it for about a year now...it all started with a heartbreak and then all this other stuff that ive held back over the years; it felt like they just fell on me...i normally dont talk about things that bother me(i guess thats my problem) so it all builds up...then for a week or two it hits me hard...i cry at night i dont sleep well i just dont feel like me...i feel like its my escape and i dont like to talk about things that bother me b/c i dont want to lose anything i hav...i dont like to anger people so i just put on a smile and say that everything is okay...but really im screaming "cant you see that theres something wrong with me!?!" the only person ive told is my sister to whom i love so much...she knows what im doing and so i do talk to her about it, i guess it comforts me knowing that someone i can trust with anything i can go to to talk too...

Can it do nerve damage? My hand has been spasming!?

I dont know...maybe

YOu can definetely do nerve damage.

Does anyone know exactly how to stop....I keep falling back into it.......and i get deeper and deeper....its really freaky.

I need help, i can't stop drinking till i pass out, cutting my wrists ( which is bad coz i have a blood phobia), feeling paranoid and trying to commit suicide.
This isn't what my family needs rite now so i need to make things better, PLEASE HELP!!!!!
(P.S.) i have to do sumthing before my parents find out, dad's dying ov cancer so mum dusn't need an outta range teen :(
if u have any advice post it or message me i'm also on bebo and hotmail ( i don't go out much)

Omg...thats awful about your dad...and gosh, i hope you start to feel better. If you need to talk, pm me...I hope everything gets better.....

I hope your dad the best...im sorry:(...