Is there something wrong with me?

Is there something wrong with me? Now, constantly I have these..I don't know if they'd be classified as suicidal. Like I was walking underneath this bridge near my house, its really steep and full of sharp rocks, and I was thinking..half of me hoping... that I'd trip and fall, hit my head on something and be injured, to see if people would care... I have this type of thoughts a lot... I don't cut myself or anything, but... now these thoughts are happening more regularly and they seem more appealing.... Is there something wrong with me?

I feel like that all the time. Like when Im walking along a busy street I think "What would happen if I stepped out in the way of a car" sometimes the temptaions are so strong that its all I can do not to. It really sucks but busy streets are all, Im okay with everything else.

Listen to me!

There is nothing wrong with you, okay?
You shouldnt be thinking like this, i agree but everyone goes through times when nothing makes sense and they feel like you do.
But we get through it, i just want to say to you, no-one is normal, because we all have the same thoughts at time to time.
What is Normal? It doesnt exist.
Love always, your friend, Tara-Kay
x

Lol.. I know that there isn't a normal..but I don't think having these thoughts is right, sometimes I'll have these impulses to jump off of this bridge near my house, and hope that I'll hit rocks...they're hard to control.. Or if they arent' about hurting myself, they're about hurting other people...I'll get really mad and want to hurt someone...I know I have a problem...but I don't know what to do...there's no one here that I can talk to...

Hey, you can always talk to me. Im not going to judge you, i will always be there if you need to chat.
I'll pm you my email adress and you feel free to email me okay, sweetie?
I can only listen, i cant stop these thoughts but i can give you advice.
Love always, Tara-Kay
x

This just means that you're having a rough time. Is there something drastic going on in your life right now? Maybe something specific is bothering you, or maybe it's some kind of subconscious need not being met.

No matter what the problem, whether you know what it is or not, you have all of this negative energy around you and instead of acting upon these absurd impulses, you should learn to turn it around into some sort of positive energy. You'd be surprised by how many things you can really do great with, with all of this energy around you. Perhaps use these feelings to create an amazing new poem, or maybe something else that gives you the satisfaction of enjoying life and the things around you.

I hope this helped at least a little. Hun, the road that you think you may be heading is a tough one. One that many people still have problems getting themselves off of. Some are stuck on that road forever because they can't get themselves together. You seem to be in the stage just before...so turn back. Preventing the road is easier than getting off of it. Trust me.

.Kayla.

Yeah... thanks ^ that helped... great one of my friends just found it! crap. she might kill me and I won't have to do it myself. lol... I guess... theres something else... well I kind of don't want to say it because she's on here... no offence, Ace, but... ok I feel bad saying this, because I used to think people who did it are dumb.. but I once almost cut myself... I had a razor over my arm... and I was hesitating... but my mom knocked on the door and stopped me... now I think about it and I don't want to do it... but what if that impulse happens again and there's no one to stop me? I feel so lost.. I know what you guys have said is true but I can't stop feeling like that...and I can't stop the impulses, what if I follow them and actually do it? What if its to late? I know some people actually cut themselves and that they have a chance but I dont' want to do it... but... I can't stop myselfs... its like my mind goes blank and I can't think of anything

Sometimes i get those feelings like wondering if i got hit by this care and wondering what would happen and who would care and stuff like that
as long as u dont actually do it thou
PM me if u wanna talk more
xx

I do all of that too...this only started happening though when i got seriously hurt and thought i had died...now everywhere i go i picture what would happen if i accidentally tripped or what not...but i don't see it the least bit abnormal, i think it's just natural human thoughts.

There is nothing wrong with u, i think the same way too , for ex i wonder if i killed myself woyld people really care, if i got badly hurt would they care, if i died would they care , and i tell myself no that they'll move on eventually