Too many problems! what should I do???

If you have stopped cutting that is a good sign, and i think you don't eat because its the only thing that you have control over, and people depressed hardly eat. My advise is that you talk to someone, and me being a person who use to be in deep depression because of family, i can really say that having someone who you can talk to, is the bestest thing.. If you just give them a chance and open up, the wieght of all your problems will slowly ease away..
If your dad hits you, then thats a really serious problem that maybe you should confront to about someone like an adult friend, if your moms depressed, show her that your there for her, and get her to open up to you. The problem with your nana and papa, just make the most of the time that they have, coz you won't realise how much you miss and need someone until there actually gone...

I'll take a look at your poems...

im sorry your so upset right now but things can ge better if u deal with them right.
1 keeping the cutting down is very good cutting solves nothing it only causes more problems.
2 you have to eat even if u think your fat witch i dont know but u probably arnt. but u have to eat no matter how much u dont wanna. if u realy think u r fat ad need to be thinner eat 5 small means a day it works better then not eating an dtry like running or joining a work out class they can be fun actuly
3 if you dad hits u its a serous thing and u have to tell some1 about it and make it stop u cant just let him do it he needs help of his own and he has no right to take it out on u
4 mom's with depresstion im realy realy firmiler with my mom has it 2 and alot of my other friends mom's just try to be there for her be helpful if it looks likes shes getting upset over something confort her the best u can and i dont know if shes already get porfestional help or not but that could help 2
as for the grandparents my grandma died of cancer and i dont think i have ever been madder. whe she died she didnt remember like nething an dit realy upset me but its been awile now i have gotten older and its easyer now i just think about good times and stuff rather then the bad last onces. and wile she still is hear enjoy it and hold on to the memorys forever. and your gandpa same thing just enjoy the time u have left and when he does pass just remeber good times and remember they would want there grand daughter happy

well thats my adivce and i will be sure to check out your poems. im hear if u wanna talk more there r ways in my pro to reach me 2 best wishes
~kathleeny~