Im about to brake.

Ive been through so much now im just so weak, Im so close to ending my life, Im 14 years old going through so much pain, trying not to hurt myself trying to smile even thought i wnat to die, But things just keep getting worse i dont no how much more i can take.

Okay, Honestly, Is your life bad? Or are you just going through the usual stage when you're not sure about things.

No honestly its bad i have to see so many comcillours an a cycitrist ( sorry cant spell it )

An im actually so close to just ending my life i cant deal with it all.

It will all be fine. I hate when people say that but it will. Just try & be happy. People have it a lot worse than you.

I dont get how you people can just say things like that, I actually the councilling an stuff is free.

yea deaths final an its what i want cause no one cares. No one can feel the pain im feeling
no once is crying my tears...

An i will not be okay thank you very much!!!

I can not change how i feel.
I no others no what im going through.
But seriosly, Dont you dare judge unless you have been through how im feeling

It may be selfish!!
But alot of people have done hurtful an selfish things towards me, i no its selfish dont you think Im thinking about that!

Everyone can change the way they feel about something if they want to, but you don't want to, there is a difference between not wanting to and not being able to. Life sucks sometimes and just when you think it can't suck any worse, it shows you how wrong you can be, it is that way for everyone at some point in their existance I would imagine. Since I don't really know your situation, I can't elaborate anymore than that. It's not about being mean, it's about being honest.

I agree with the post above..

Life is not that bad. Yes there are hard times and EVERYONE is going to feel pain. Be grateful. I don't think anyone can say it better than Bob did. Sorry but it's the harsh reality.

Bob, this is a really awful way to respond to someone.

"You get to see a counselor, and a psych...wow, you must have good health insurance, and while you're considering how lucky you are to even be able to afford such, think about a tad maturity and handling your problems by using the tools afforded to you...your problems are temporary dear, death is final"

If a member said that they would deserve a warning from a Moderator, I mean what gives you the right to be so disrespectful and arrogant?....

You have shown me many times how little sympathy you can have for people who are upset but do not meet your criteria for respect and I think it's totally harsh of you....you should be ashamed of yourself man....especially because you do help lots of other people....what gives?

I do not think he was being rude. When he has to put up with little "depressed" teenagers complaining all the time it kinda gets to you. & he is right life really is not that bad. She is just looking at the bad side. I think his response to her was completely right.

I no that alot of people go through bad things an they still dont committ suicide!!
A Question to you!!
If i was older maybe 20 or something would you think differently!!

You all are not being very helpful!! You dont no my situation!! How can you say that its not that bad, when you really do not no!
I think thats unfair
My point is, Im 14 an have been through alot of stuff people cant even imagin!! An you no what,, Its selfish to take my own life i no that but there is only so much a 14 year old can deal with an im past that point.

Stop judging me every post i leave people say harsh things

The brutel truth is not that My life isnt that bad
THE BRUTEL TRUTH IS IM GOING THROUGH HELL AN WANT SAPORT NOT BE TOLD IT ISNT EVEN BAD

An im sick of all this judgement Excuse my Language bob but its all bullsh't..

Maybe i should just stop posting if when i ask for help all i get is criscised stop trying to make my problems small because they definatly are not.

^
okay!

so, what exactly are 'these' huge problems you're dealing with, you have failed to convey in any of your posts the reason why you're going through hell.

maybe, once you make it clear, it will be easier to support you.

but one thing is for sure, i will not support someone in committing suicide, regardless of the hell you're going through, i mean isn't that, like, second-degree murder?

^euthanasia?

Your post was patronizing Bob, and disrespectful. You assumed that because she is pretty in her profile picture then her problem must be of a lesser variety or that she isn't dealing with them in a positive way, when remarkably you don't actually know what her problems are! That is where you whole viewpoint falls flat, you are being strong handed with her and ever so slightly dismissive and you don't even know what she is going through.

I'm not for wrapping people up in cotton wool, I, like you believe in straight talking and direct honest advice, but I believe we should be very tactful in how we put our strong points across, especially when dealing with someone who might be extremely vunerable and sensitive. We all know how dramatic teenagers can be, but you shouldn't assume this is the case and just blankly tell people to "laugh at their problems and get on with it" [paraphrased]

Perhaps you have forgotten what it actually feels like to be a teenager. Sure they need strength and guidence, but what they don't need is criticism and compassionless philosophies....you might very well break them out of their shells, but you'll hurt them in the process I think.

You watched a stephen segal film?.

What an inspiring source of wisdom! : )

You can still put your message of tackling ones problems proactively Bob, most people would agree we should do that as people.

You just needn't be so harsh, and you were man...it's just not respectful and compassionate....but maybe you have had lots of success being your way.

I'm not in the mood to read what everyone has to say about it, but this is what I think;

I don't get the point, how a 14 year old girl, can just say that she wants to die, being so simple about her life..when other people in the world have struggled (sp?) with the deaths of the ones they loved... Hmm.. My mother died when I was 4.. I still struggle every day, that she did. And now every time I here that somebody wants to die, because his/her life "sucks".. I just don't understand how they can think that.. People do care about you, and life isn't that bad as you think it might be. Of course nobody feels your pain or whatever you go through, so you'll just have to listen to what they think about your situation. But try to see the positive things in life.. Try to see that there are a lot of people that care... (Like all these people who are reacting to this post)
bla.. T_T you're 14...

Did you criticize him for being able to afford or be allocated therapy? Did you tell him to just laugh off his problems?

Maybe you actually knew what his problems were....which was I'm sure a better start.

We can argue about who is right and wrong here, but the young lady herself is more important and I'd really like to hear what she thinks.

I have been changed by people in the past who were very harsh, and by God they changed me, but not always for the better and I resented them their cold ways afterwards....there have also been people who by gentle example have shown me other ways to live without saying a negative word to me about how stupid my teenage problems were in comparison to the rest of the world etc.

It is these latter people I respect to this day.

You get to see a counselor, and a psych...wow, you must have good health insurance, and while you're considering how lucky you are to even be able to afford such, think about a tad maturity and handling your problems by using the tools afforded to you...your problems are temporary dear, death is final

the problem i had with this is that this child may very well be being abused. she might be being raped. and the people you supposedly help in real life- she could be just like them. just because she lives in a home with some money doesn't mean her life is perfect, and therefore unable for her problems to be existent. you'll completely defend any starving child or teenager you've helped get out of a broken home but as soon as they come online, it instantly means they must be superficial because their parents have money and you get on their case. that wasn't harsh reality you gave her, that was irrelevant criticism. poor or not her problems are as important as anybody elses and you haven't even heard them yet you keep on judging. i don't believe in sugarcoating things at all, i believe as much as anyone that children should hear the truth, but not in an insulting manner which will, and obviously has offended them. your post wasn't rational, necessary and it to be quite honest disgusted me you could say something like this to a child you may have helped in real life, but would never dare speak a bad word to them. it's quite contradicting. all the so-called sympathy you have for abused children, harmless children, yet once you get on the internet that's all gone and you lost everything you stood for. i'm just saying maybe before you think about being straight forward you could 'think a tad more about maturity' and kindness before you insult her like that. and yes it was insulting, implying simply because she can ask for advice on a poetry discussion board she is no longer worthy of the respect you apparently give to other abused children.

Humm.
Well I'm sorry to say hun but there are tons of people who have it worse than you. You really just have to learn how to help yourself, how to stand up on your own and fight the pain. Because in the end, there really isn't gonna be anyone fighting with you anyway. I know how you feel, I've seriously thought about suicide for a long time now, but one thing I don't do normally is post about it on this site, though I have, it's quite annoying because people will give you shit about how you're just a kid, teenager, w/e and it's just hormones. That's not the annoying part however, lol. It's annoying because they're right. ^.^ You're growing up, it's normal for you to feel this way, maybe your life does suck, maybe you hate it but if you have people in life who care about you, suicide is the most selfish thing on earth.
I hate my parents, my life, but I have a little sister, and lots of friends who do care about me, I would never commit suicide because who would take care of my sister if I did? what would happen to my friends?
Ask yourself these questions and think about it, is your selfishness really more important than the happiness of others? I get through every day because when I smile, even if the smile is fake, others will smile back at me. Don't be selfish.

oh. and you are very lucky to have a counselor or psychiatrist, i wish i did. >.<

Hey BrokenVodkaBottle.... Problems can seem like EVERYTHING and everyone says "You'll grow out of it" or something like that. (By the way I'm 13.) They suck! It's just not that easy, is it? Holidays are coming up and things will be so blissful. And taking your own life is selfish. It'd break everyone's heart, including MINE, and I've never met you before. Just wait it out and do things that make you happy (e.g singing, playing music, chilling with friends, writing, anything that doesn't hurt yourself.) Also, who you are around and what you're around can effect your life. Sweetie, things CAN get better even if you are 100% sure they can't. WE all go through pain and no one gets another's pain. Just please please (I'M BEGGING YOU ON MY KNEES) don't do anything just yet. Wait for a few years and see how you are doing in a while, meaning like years. PLEASE. I love you... Think about me and your friends and family and and and... Guh please
~!~ VaNiLLa iCe ~!~

Maybe im just being pathetic but i didnt no how to deal with the pain thats inside me an it was driving me insane.

Well obviously that's true, or else there wouldn't be a sadness forum even, because everyone would already know how to get rid of their sadness. ^.^

you're not being pathetic, you just have to think about your life, and try to see every positive thing in it you can. fight the sadness.

People often say to let sadness go...

But when you are faced with it every single day, sadness in a way can be comforting...In its removal of pride and reflection of one's soul.

To the original poster. I think it would be best if you reflect on why these things always seem to happen to you....And jot it down.

Write down all the different things making you sad, and why they do so. Once you do that, you'll effectively tackle all of your sadness, and truly appreciate any form of happiness that come your way.

Everyone and I mean everyone goes through sadness, just like you. And by asking and seeking help from us. It shows that you are on your way to tackling and removing that sadness away.

Honestly, I'll be nice as possible sweetie From the little I read of ALL your posts... Your young, we all where 14 at one point,I'm sure everyone is connected to the things you feel. So don't say no one understands or doesn't know how you feel. There is always someone who cares,even if you don't see it. Because whether or not you WANT to believe this there is always someone who cares. (sorry i repeated myself .lol.) Depression is a sickness (in my own terms) why because you feel things that honestly you shouldn't,in moments of being down (or suicidal) its like another person feeding your mind (bull$h1t) and from that you end up doing stupid things. So try to remember that someone always has it worse (not trying to sound rude) make changes id you have too.
Do something to help forget or at least keep you occupied so your not thinking silly like... You'll be surprised what happens... I Hope I Helped Some. If You Ever Wanna Talk Just Leave Me A Msg. Try to take it easy. take care.

Be strong! :]
i mean, i cant really be one to talk about being strong. b/c im at a point in my life where im not doing too well either. and i HAVE thought about suicide before. but right now, you're just 14. this is gonna sound so cliche but youve got your whole life ahead of you, you know. i mean, give it some times. things will get better. sometimes i dont and sometimes i do, believe in karma. but i think that all this is gonna come back. and something extraodrinary will happen to you. :]

-H0lD Y0UR HEAD HiGH BEAUTiFUl.
THERE ARE PE0PlE KilliNG T0 SEE Y0U FAll- :]

You are not the only one like this. you are still so young, you have plenty of time to be happy again. be grateful for what you have rather then what you dont...i wish i could follow my own advice. i've been depressed for 4 yrs now...eventually the pain will leave though..just try to live day to day and forget what has hurt you yesterday...

just remember, you asked for help. you don't need to be so rude to everyone giving you advice. if you say none of us know your situation, why don't you fill us in or stop being so rude, eh?

Thats basically part of a teenagers life. i mean, not many teenagers have a perfect life. depression is a part of life, and it will make you into YOU. you learn so much from it. and please dont kill yourself, thats the worst thing to do! thats so not a solution to anything! i honestly hate when people say that, or even think of it. i mean, thats so wrong. think of all the things you have in life..i mean there are sooo many more people in life who have a much worser life than you do.. like think of the kids with no family, no water, no food, no computer, no shelter, no life.. you know? so i think you can make a better choice! feel better(:

Yeah so uhh...im kinda thinking wtf....how do you offer advice with out knowing the issue of a person? id like to know why you feel like dying...and whoever said that your only 14 you shouldnt be feeling this or w\e was said. you dont haft to be a certain age to think. an issue is an issue at any age...and why were people aruging on the thread about something completely different?

kinda weird thread...

still want to know WHAT THE PROBLEMS ACTUALLY ARE!

Please dont!
you have a life to live! you still have goals to make and accomplish, death isnt the solution!