Because of Me...

Thanks KT. I'll try to cut back from assuming it's always my fault. U really cheered me up! Thanks

hey sierra (haven't seen you round here in ages!) none of this is your fault, you've obviously done nothing wrong! Hang in there and keep your head up, it'l be fine. AND DON'T BLAME YOURSELF!

charlie x

Thanks Charlie. I know, my parents have actually taken away my internet completely. All i have is microsoft word in which i write my poems. It is a sad life, lol. Anyhow, I will try to get on whenever I come here, which is like once or twice a month.

lyl!

Take Care Charlie!

~Sierra

p.s. I may b goin home today, but I can't b sure until all the drama is settled. I'll let you know when I leave, hopefully if Im not rushed.

I've been cured of my constant heartache and been replaced with a new one. He's my friends older bro-disturbingly, he's like 24 or something. Silly young girl infatuations. Don't think i'm weird lol! He acts sooo much like a kid it's hard to remember that he's out of college and everything. You know, it's sort of like having a crush on ur teacher sort of thng... nehow, I don't love him, but he's the coolest guy I know now.

~Sierra

sorry about the divorce thing. and its not your fault and u should never think that way. and i know its gonna be realy hard dealing witht he fights and taking care of your bro and all that but just stay stong and things will get better some day i can tell u realy love and care about your family and thats wonderful. stay stong for yourself and them it will all work out even if its hard im hear if u wanna talk at all about nething
~kathleeny~

p.s. ways to get me r in my pro

It's not your fault that they are getting divorced.

It's their problem (your mother and father) something that they have to work out between themselves.

Don't be to hard on your self babes.

hey sierra, hope things get sorted soon, everything, home and heartaches! 'see' (well talk) soon,

charlie x

hey my love
firstly, ur parents are not divorcing coz of u. i went thru tht stage too. but u have GOT to remember tht ur parents were their own ppl, hu had arguments and they both love u so so much and its NOT UR FAULT i promise u.
i wanna give u sum advice tht my bestest mate gave me...whenever things go rong, just think "fuck it" and try n move on. and keep smiling. it works trust me xxxxxxxx

ya know it's definatly not your fault
AND they do love you
unlike me where if my parents get a divorce it is my fault cuz they wouldn't have gotten married in the first placeif it wern't for me
at least thats wat my dad said
and my mum ithink hate s me

hun it aint ur fault. they just hav issues they cant sort out thats all.

that's a horrible thing for your dad to say to you, Shy. Worse for him that he saw your birth as nothing but a burden. You're mom doesn't hate you. Probably. Most parents don't hate their children. Some just have a really weird way of showing love.

my parents are seperated (in distance). He got a job in another state and is living in an apartment. The reasons he left his other job are vague and sound suspiciously like excuses. They haven't said the word "seperation" yet, but they have a history of not telling me or my brother things of unpleasant natures until eleventh hour, if at all. I'm not entirely upset. And I know it's not my fault. My dad's had alcohol problems since forever, and has always been emotionally unavailable. There are times I've wanted this, but the reality of "seperation" is getting to me now.