F*cked Up

im serouly not trying to be an attention whore or nething and i dont wanna start ne fights or nething. but ne way i dont know what happend but 2day i just broke down. i was doing realy well staying remotely happy and being "normal" and today started off ok i was actuly pritty happy cus i wanted 2 see every1 after x-mass brake.

school was going ok and the last period of the day i had to talk with my ex's best friend. and hes a nice kid and all but i still havnt gotten over my ex and that got me upset and then from there i went home and planed on talking to my friend online. at aroud 7 she finaly gets on and tells me how she went to her other "best friends" witch normaly doesnt bother me but she promiced to be on right after schoool and i dont nw for some reson today it just realy hurt. and then she was talking about all the good times she was haveing over there and stuff then she was telling me this person i should go out with out of no were and i was still upset my ex and then evething just realy upset me and i told her i had to go and just put up an away.

now im crying and i dont even have a reson and im just so messed up and i dont even fully no y i wrote this i just had to get it out some were sorry if u have nething to say please say it. it would realy make me feel better ... hopfuly bye bye

hey guys thanks i get what u r saying and i did make realy good friends with her friend for a wile we even dated for 2 mounths. and it was all cool now her friends hates me for no reson at all and im still realy nice to her when im around her and everything but shes realy realy realy annoying. and i dont care that her and my friend r friends but it just hurt that she promiced to be with me and then ditched me to be with some1 eles. she knows i care about her tons and everything but sometimes i feel she doesnt care about me at all. i dont im probably over reackting cus im a dumb ass like that but i cant help it. and i dont wanna sound selfish but this sorta is but neway we havent hung out just me and her in forever because her other friend always comes and invites herself where ever we go and its starting to realy bother me cus i miss being with just me and best friend and talking like we used 2 ne way ya i know its sorta messed up but its how i feel. but ne way thanks agien from comenting
~kathleeny~