Advice Please?

So there's this boy. This, I guess, is the typical i-love-him-he-dont-love-me story. But it's different at the same time. I mean, I really do love him. And i honestly dont believe that -you're-to-young-to-know-what-love-is crap. We could never be together and I never understood why. He never bothered explaining it to me either. I spent 4 years crushing on him. But I've loved him for three. He means the world to me, and when he moved, i was devastated. I didn't get so much as a good-bye. He was really confusing and I just. .didn't understand him much. But I was one of the only people who'd ever seen his nice side. [He has a reputation to keep; and I was okay with that] Eventually, after he moved away, we were talking, and he told me that he actually did like me before. And now I'm all jumbled up inside. And my emotions are going crazy. I'm confused. Simple as that. .He told me that it was his friends, and shit with us just. .didn't happen. :[ He coming here for Winter Break. And I want to see him. But it would be best if I didn't. But I can't resist. .I HAVE to see him. ."/ I dunno. . I'm scared though. Scared of what he'll say when our eyes meet. Afraid of what he'll do when we speak. Simply afraid of an even worse heart break. I mean, what if we again meet and I fall deeper and then he leaves, to go back to his new home. What then?
-sigh- But I HAVE to see him! I don't know what to do. .Do you think I should go?

I do think u should see him! ya u mite fall for him a little more but i mean just think he mite leave and u'll have a great memory to look back on!!!

I think you should see him. i mean, if you dont, wouldnt u spend the rest of ur life wondering what would have happened if you had seen him?

I think you should not see him. Going to see him will onl jumble up your head more. And if you do go to see him then be sure to call him first or get him to come round to your house where you feel secure and safe. That way if you get let down you wont have to go home because you are already there. Sometimes life throw obstacles at you that you have to overcome. You either ask him to his face what he wants or stay away from him because his rep seems to be more important than you to him at the moment =D

xxx alex xxx

You're going to have to see him again sooner or later. It'll help with closure. It could mix your feelings even more, but then at least you'll know how he feels. If he doesn't feel the same, then well, you'll have to get over it. No one said it feelings die quickly. "it was his friends" LAME REASON. Allowing society to stop things from happening... Just be straight up with him when you see him. Don't let fear get in the way, even if you end up getting bashed later. Life wouldn't be life without a few crashes and bumps here and there.