Dreams.

So I broke up with my boyfriend atleast 3months ago. An he did some things after the brake out to lash out on me an hurt me.

The thing is i had a dream last night, that he was saying sorry an he was crying an i felt like i could feel his tears, an we were kissing, an i felt like i could feel his kiss.. An then before he left he said. heres a piece of paper right down everything wrong thing i have done.

I woke up from this dream basicly crying. I lost all control because it hurt so bad that it was a dream not reality. I then hurt myself.

An i cant even sleep it takes me until bout 2 in the morning to get to sleep.

this pain just feels to much.
An it doesnt help i los tmy virginty to him either </3

Im so broken An messed up

Do you still talk to him? the dream might just mean that he wants you to forgive him for the bad things he did. talk to him and ask him how he's doing if you can

I cant talk to him.
He hates me!

he told me 2 kill myself called me fat n ugly...

I couldnt bare tlkin 2him.. He jsu hurt me so much</3

Oh sweetheart!
If anyone can say those things to you they are the scum of the earth and not worth your tears!

He sounds like a rotton apple, to the core.
What a horrible boy, he has no right to tell you to kill yourself. Argh! What a *insert very bad word here*

I know the thing is no matter how bad he has hurt me,, i still love him an i dont understand why..??

I'm going to state the obvious - he's not worth it. He doesn't deserve you so it's time to let him go.

You did love him at some point - but maybe you're getting your feelings confused about how you felt about him before and how you feel now?

If you need to talk, I'm here :)

I had a weird dream one day...i was at church just hanging with my friends...i feel a tap on my shoulder, i turn around no one is there so i go back to what i was doing again another tap i look back no one is there. my friend elizabeth looks at me crazy. so i turn back around. another tap i turn around there a guy, but his face was blurry. but his voice sounded familiar i ask him who he was and he said.. im the one guy youve always wanted..but his face was still blurry like i could nto see it. my friend elizabeth asks me who im talking too ans i told her the guy right there she looks at me and says what guy and i look and he was gone...i woke up and then at church i felt a tap on my shoulder and no one was there

"i still love him an i dont understand why..??"

Feelings don't stop just because we wish they would, if only life was that easy. Sounds like you wish he would apologize by your dream. 3 months is not that long especially when you shared something that is so meaningful to you, your first is not always the right choice, sadly it tends to stay with you longer.

I no i cant jus wish to have these feelings go away caus thats not life an it takes time. But i just dont want them hurting me like they are.

Cause this man doesnt deserve my love.