I'm just afraid. .

Sometimes i wish i could just cry. cry my heart out. sometimes i wish i could just. .escape. like really, escape from this world. .from my life, you know. i smile sometimes because i'm not afraid to be happy anymore. but once i'm alone. .it alwayz seems like the sorrow. the regrets. the remorse. all comes flooding back to my memories and it holds me back. i feel like i'm incapable to letting go because i'm afraid of losing him.

i lost him once. and i'm afraid that if i just let go of our friendship. .he'll never come back. :[

Things only affect you if you let them -- this is absolutely true for memories; the regret will never go away if you can't let it go. Whatever happened, you have to get over it. I don't know the situation, so I can't really help, but whatever it is, you just have to stick it through and not let all this remorse get in the way of living life.
Escaping reality is just ignoring the problems -- once you're back, the problems will still be there. You gotta face whatever's making you hide.

The rain just makes me tired. :]

but it helps me whenever i try to write. :DD

I'M AFRAID that someone will hurt my child and I
WON''T BE there to help her. IM AFRAID that I'll
always be afraid