My Grandma...

I live with her, and everyday she is getting more and more mean to me. yesterday was the 1st day in like...months that we didnt argue. even as im typing this we are arguing. but anyway, as i was saying, today has been the worst day for a long time. and i really need help on knowing what to do...

well today at lunch it all started with her saying "you look like you've gained 10 lbs, you need to lose weight"
and i was like i dont feel the need to i am fine w/ my weight and how i am.
and she said "people dont like fat people. as long as you're fat you won't have friends"
and i said well if you only make friends by the way you look then i'd rather have no friends.
so yeah then that was basically it for then

we got over it before work. and so i was in a good mood at work and on the way home. then i decide to be nice and sit w/ her while she eats dinner, big mistake. we were talking about my hair when i said that was going to do it soon, which i've been telling her for months. i'm getting in blonde and red instead of black and red which it is now.

then she said "if you do that to your hair you cannot live here"
and i said well if how i look is going to change where i live then maybe it's best i don't live here.
and she said "you look like a freak. girls with un-natural hair look like girls"
and i said "what about now. no one is born in this world with red and black hair. am i not a lady?"
her-"well what you have now is cute"
me-"but before i did my black, you said it would make me look like a freak. do i? then i had to beg you a year for the red because i'd look like a freak, do i?"
she says nothing, because im right
and yeah

then shes mad at me
and she comes in and is saying all this stuff
and i said "parents are supposed to be like 'it doesn't matter what you look like, it's what's on the inside that counts'"
and she says nothing.
and i say "you were the one that started this by calling me fat this morning and saying no one likes fat people. well i have a crush on a 300lb man (which i do), does that make me not a person"
her "you only like him because you cant get a 150lb man" (lol thats kinda skiny for a dude =/)
anyway..then i say its just because i like him and thats it. and yeah

gah
i've already typed too much. what a waste of space. but like..what should i do? its like nothing i do can win. and its so tiring. and i dont get to see my therapist again until january 7th because hes on winter holiday or w/e. and yeah..i feel like i might cut again (sry sry i know that anything cutting goes into the other forum) but yeah...i dont know what to do..please help me before i lose my mind..x.x

Wow. Just try not to argue with her and make the best of things :]]

I try...its just so tiring to get downed a hundred times a day...

When she starts with you just walk away.

I have a grandmother like this and I did have to live with her unfortunately. You're 17, old enough to do what you like with yourself, don't discuss anything with her that you don't have to. Silence is a killer, if she prds for info, say you'd rather not discuss it because she never has anything positive to say and you'd rather feel good about yourself. Your grandmother is supposed to be a positive fixture in your life, I know my other one is one of the most wonderful women I know. good luck.

Thanks I'm sure trying.right now its 2 am and I can't sleep. She causes me to lose so much sleep...my sleeping pills won't work anymore. You know what's funny though is she tells me I'm not acting like a normal person...well I am given 9 perscriptions a day...I don't see that as being something Normal for a 17 yr old girl to do...eh but w/e... 11 months 13 days til I'm 18...:/

Any other advice..?

Thanks to those who already answered

You really need to tell her that she's pushing you away, you need to be harsh here to get your point across.
Tell her that every time she puts you down, you love her a little bit less cos you can't understand how someone who is supposed to love you the way you are can put you down so often.
Let her know that sometimes you really can't stand her because of what she's putting you through or she's going to keep doing it.
Good luck

So today we were eating dinner, and we're talking just fine, we haven't really argued since i posted this last...well we have, but nothing important. anyway, so we're talking and shes like "when are you going to use your teeth whitener???!!" me-"when i feel like it" her-"you really need to"... -.- retarded...anyone else have any advice?

Do you ever feel like nothing you say is right, there is always an argument
thats how my aunt is, i live with her and shes probly around the same age or older than your grandma(of course i wouldnt know), and ive learned to just say okay, youre right and walk away
i understan though that it is really hard sometimes when you know what shes saying is so wrong or offensive
just try to agree with her, clench your fists and walk away
:)

^ exactly what he said :)

She might have known someone who was fat and or she was fat at some point in her life. it just her being protective and not wanting you to get hurt or anything thats all

2 things one i think ur hair looks cool and will probably look cool wat ever u do 2 it and two couldnt you find one of ur friends 2 live with

Thanks. my hair is kinda cool im just sick of it. i like change. and 2 i would find someone to live with but i dont really have any friends at the moment..lol