I want to run away. . .

My life is annoyingly normal right now. Nothing ever happens and it's driving me mad. Nothing new and exciting happens. All I ever feel is alone and depressed because all I ever think about is the past, and my past is horrible. I feel as though there is nothing to look forward to and that I'm failing in life. Everday I wake up, wishing I was somewhere else, doing something with my life. I have even given up in school and am failing all my classes. When my guidance counselor asks me why I'm not trying, I don't know what to tell him. I don't want anybody to know that I feel like I slowly drowning and that there is no hope for me. Can someone help me or give me advice? I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to give up and lock my heart and mind from everything. I hate this. Please help. . .

You want out and you want a better life, but you won't find that by failing school or running away. If you want to be happy now stop living in the past, usually we dwell on those things because we have not resolved them, find closure if you can and if not accept that you can not change what has happened, but you can choose what is going to happen in your future. Get your grades back up and go away to college, look to the future and step out of your past.

^exactly rather then running away and making things worse put excitment and change in your life...but make it good. Join a new team or club, make new friends, do some volunteer work, start a new hobby

Thanks for the help everyone! I'll try my best :)