I posted on here during the summer about my so-called "girlfriend" (we messed around but no one knew about it, we were never really 'official') and how much I cared for her, but that I wasn't sure how it'd work out between us.
Well, here's what's happened:
As I said in the post a while ago, she got held back. And just like I thought, we stopped talking. For a month or two, I believe. I thought about her all the time, and called her a couple times but she never answered or called me back. It was like she had forgotten all about me, and didn't even care. It literally tore me apart, and I was really depressed for a while. I got together with a close friend though, and I guess having a boyfriend and someone who really cared about me again eased the sadness a tiny bit. But then one night, just out of the blue, I called her. And remarkably, she answered. We talked and laughed about school and what had been going on for like 3 hours. It felt good to chat with her like that again. She had a boyfriend though, and I have to admit, that stung a little bit. And I told her how I felt, and that I didn't want things to change. She told me that she had moved on, and things had to change. I got upset and hung up. Recently she told me that after I hung up on her she pulled out the box she had of every single note I'd ever written her, and she read them all, and she cried. Since then we've been talking almost everyday, but she's changed a lot since the summer. I'd never say anything to try and really hurt her, but she's turned into a sl*t. She has like three boyfriends, all of them are good friends, but don't know about each other (I have no idea how). But we still talk like we used to, telling each other we love the other, and saying sweet things like how we neevr want to lose each other again. We could've hung out on New Year's Eve, but I left to go to my neighbor's literally minutes before she called to make sure she could still come over.
So yeah...The point of this was first of all to get it all out, and second of all to ask opinions of what I should do. I'll probably post more on this to kind of clarify things, but for now I just want advice.
(And btw, I'm still with my boyfriend, we've been together almost three months now.)
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