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I love love, if anyone loves love, good for you. and i need serious advise

I'm sorry, i had meant to post more, but my boss made me do something for her. I was actually meaning to talk about my issue right now. I have been with this guy for almost a year. we use to date, and on my 21st birthday we got drunk and his ex called, i told her to stop talking to my boyfriend, and i found out they were still dating, so we broke up. then they broke up n me n him got back together... and so did they, but i love this guy so much and i just cant break up with him. then he wanted a break and he slept with someone i thought was my friend, and he claimed to date her, then she was a slut and left him, and i stsarted talking to this nice guy, and eli came back into my life and i left this nice guy for eli again, and me and eli got into a fist fight out side the bar, and i would always get drunk and ruin his relationship with his girl back home. me and him have gone back and forth at hurting eachother and idk what to do, i love him so much and i just cant get over him and he talks to his ex all the time and tells me how much he loves her, and i tell him i want him to get back with her cuz she makes him happy, but it breaks my heart cuz i wna be the one to make him happy. everyone says me n him are going to get married cuz of the way we are with each other and the shit we have done, but we are still together even after everything we have been through. what should i do?

First gather your self respect, he cheats, he lies, he hits, that whole story I have yet to hear one good thing about him. What we convince ourselves we want is not always what we need. Is this the kind of relationship you want to spen dthe rest of your life in? Have children in? What if you have daughters? Is that the kind of realtionship you want them to be in? You are on a long dangerous road of unhappiness, get off now before 20 years go by and you're sitting there crying about how much time you have wasted.

Wow, i never had anyone put it that way. He hasnet hit me, i did more of the hitting, but he did defend himself. I dont remember much of that night, thank god, but whats sad is him and i were freidns before anything, and he is really my better half, he has been the only true friend i have here on base, and i have fuked him up so much and ruined his life alot and his family back home, not on purpose, but it has happened, and he still loves me, its alot more complicated than what i can write and its a long, long story. but i understand what you mean. thank you

I only gave that advise cuz im stupid enough to be in the same situation, and i know what needs to be done, i just havent done it tey, im letting go, but slowly. its really hard, and i cant just drop him cold turkey. this heart break is going to time.

It was merely self defence, she was drunk and charged at mn and tried to choke me, you think im going to sit there and let her do that? I dont think so, i told my Chief about the situation, and he agrees that it was self defence.
I really dont need anyone putting me down right now, what i need to to hear is advise, i know i need to leave him, but what i dont know is how to do it so it wont hurt so bad,

You are the root of your pain, no can tell you how not to hurt, you should be glad to leave this kind of poisonous relationship, whether you are the instigator or not, it is not healthy. Sure it hurts to leave a relationship, but your state of mind governs how long you will hurt.

And i would always get drunk and ruin his relationship with his girl back home.

^huh?YOU'RE worried about ruining his relationship with his OTHER GIRLFRIEND?

...get some self respect, before you make some poor kid have to be blood related to this creep.