He's 400 miles away and it still hurts.

You know, after talking to him and hearing most of the things I needed to hear, I thought I was just that much closer to getting over him. He's over 400 miles away, and finding out about his girlfriend still hurts. But it hurts more NOW then it did before. Sigh. .i dunno. 400 miles away. .I'm pathetic, right? "/

Thanks. .I still kinda feel pathetic, but I'll try to overlook it I guess. It just feels weird because before he moved away, I didn't know where our friendship stood because it was always here and there, and up and down. We went out once and he broke up with me and I spent forever trying to figure out what I did wrong. But in the end, it wasn't even me, it was his friend[s].
After he moved away, he told me how much he DID like me and "cared." He said he wishes he could go back and change things. Forget about his friends and not have been an a--. I guess that made me feel a bit better about myself. And I dunno. .I didn't really expect him to just. .stop his life for me, even though I wish it was possible. But I think that I would've rather not known about his girlfriend. At least, not yet.
I've been in love with this kid for the past 4 years of my life, well, actually 3. .but I met him 4 years ago. :] All the things I write about, mostly, are about him. I really don't think it's possible for me to get over him. I feel like within the past 3-4 years, I've attached myself to him and with each day that passes, it gets harder and harder to let go. It gets harder and harder for the, as Josh says, "scars on my heart" to heal. I feel like everything that I'm not ready to know that i've already found out tears the scars more and more each time, and soon, it won't be able to mend anymore.