All Cutting, self harm threads - post here #12

Cutting, smoking, drugs, drinking, all addictions, afflictions of the mind. No matter how you look at it how can a person who self harms in anyway be completely mentally stable? If they were they would not need such things.

I think that people who cut are well aware that they are not in any stable state. If they were then they wouldn`t need to but. It`s not like were dumb or something. So I wouldn`t go judging when you obviously do not know what you`re talking about.

Not to be rude or anything, but you make it sound like we have a handicap illness. When in reality, it is our way of dealing with pain. Some people run, write, shop, eat. Whatever floats there boat.

Myself personally, sports is an outlet for some of my pain. Writing is another but some pain is so deep and practically unbearable so I cut. If you would like to know why, because I would not want you to assume that I cut for attention or anything. My mother died two years ago and I have mental disabilities if that is what you would like to say. But then again, I am a straight A student, take high school classes in 8th grade and play a majority of the sports at my school. So before you jump to conclusions and assume ALL people who cut are stupid you might want to check again.

Sorry if I seem in any way rude or whatever I may come across as but don`t judge me or anyone else for that matter just because we cut.

Amber.

If your comment was directed at me, maybe you should go back and read what I wrote.

Yes I did read what you wrote. Quite a few times actually.

"Cutting, smoking, drugs, drinking, all addictions, afflictions of the mind. No matter how you look at it how can a person who self harms in anyway be completely mentally stable? If they were they would not need such things"

To me and mind that this may be just me but it sounds as if you think we do not already realize that we are not mentally stable. It`s apparent that we aren`t. No offense to you or anything but for myself it was offensive.

Lol I am a cutter, so I speak from personal experience, you respond as though I don't know what it is to be one of the people I am talking about.

Well, then now it is a different story. I apologize because I did not know that you were a cutter as well.
Wow. I feel dumb now.
:/

That's why I said go back and read what I wrote lol

"People and circumstances may have helped me become a cutter, but I ultimately made the choice."

If you all are looking for somewhere to talk about self harm openly with people who get it, then go check out this web site:

www.recoveryourlife.com

This is where i go to talk about it, get advice, support, help quitting and simply understanding. If you go, look me up. My username is *ana's-broken-play-thing*

good luck to all.

Well I wanted to kill myself a coouple of times do to my love life being destroyed by my father, he's an ass hole and I hate him very much. I been cutting my legs up and beating myself to death like never before. I made my boyfriend cry and that's when I learned that some one really loves me.

My mom was really freaking me out as usual, like grabbing me and shaking me and punching me and calling me names and saying she cant wait til i move out and stuff, so i got this feeling tht i wanted to die..so i cut myself again and the sting of the cut lasted for almost 2 days...i didnt even care how much i was so depressed i almost cut near the vein jus to bleed to death i wanted to get out of here i couldnt take her anymore. its like my 20th relapse and everytime i stop for a while its worse when i go back, i cut a little deeper or a little more.

I stopped smoking for my boyfriend, plus my dad decided to quit, so he stopped making them, and i regret it....i want one right now.
i stopped cutting a long time ago, but its come back to haunt me. i started up again yesturday.
i know that some people call cutters 'crazy' 'mental', or 'emos', but i find myself pretty 'normal', compared to everyone else at school.
i'm one of the few people(like one out of 50-100 people) that doesn't smoke weed. proud of it, but i don't know how much longer that's goning to last...

If I hit her back she would call the cops on me, and get me in trouble instead..

Maybe when she hits you, you should call the cops on her.

There would be no proof an she'd deny it
cuz it doesnt leave a bruise

The proof would be call after call of you complaining of abuse, talk to a school cousellor or someone, your mom has no right to harm you physically or emotionally, as your parent it is her job to protect you, even if she doesn't always agree with you.

Dp

Never really had a cutting problem

was more into the burning thing

take a cig and smoke it close to the filter (can't waste a single one lol) and just put it out right on the forearm

don't do it

really don't

i'm in the army and i almost didn't get in cause of the scars

i got a psyche evalutation because of it

it was intense

don't effin do it

no

I burnt myself once... hurted like a motherfucker and it got infected. burns infect more than cuts...

I am now... 6 months clean. Pretty good, isn´t it!?

I branded my self. i don't call it burning because it wasn't outa anger or depression and it was like a tattoo. I branded an "X" onto my left arm. It hurt like fuck, but i did it! ^_^ And i cut too...I havent in a while tho... because i only do it when im extreamly pissed off.

Arghhh i had to do it last night. i did it the day before too. when i havent in 3 months. i have burned myself, cut myself then cut the word HATE into my arm. why oh why? that was stupid. if anyone does see it then they will think i have gone ruddy crazy now.

So yea, i started up again a ouple weeks ago. i thought i was fine and all of this was behind me... but i guess it's not... i wish i could take it back, i wish i had never gone back to it, but i did. and it's all i ever think about. it's always there in the back of my mind, haunting me, making my life a living hell. this is so stupid. i want everything to just go away, i hate it. but whenever im alone, in my room, it finds it's way itno my mind. i cant block it out, i wish i could, but i cant. im not strong enough.

"My point is that if people cut..
Leave them alone .
Think what you like and simply leave these people alone ."

That doesn't go for everyone, I am glad my friends and family didn't leave me alone, I always knew that if I needed it they would be willing to help me and that helped, if that wasn't there and everyone just ignored me, I know I would have gotten worse, just thinking one day I was going to be strong enough to make them proud of me was a help, it didn't hinder me. When you do something like cut, one has to expect that if they do it long enough it will be seen and then it of course not only your issue, but the issue of those around you who know you and love you. Sadly there are going to be those who also know how to exploit you and hurt you with that information as well. I will never stop wishing to turn other people away from this nasty habit because I know how horrible it can be. You can't stop one problem by creating another and being indifferent and looking the other way is not the answer either.

Lol I wasn't making assumptions, we cut because of something in our life, cutting should not be a solution, though for some of us, it is. Cutting brings more problems, not answers. If you had no problems why would you need to cut?

If you see a friend hurting themselves and you look the other way and say "oh well" what kind of friend are you? Of course if you care about someone you are going to worry and want to do all you can to help.

We all screw up sometimes, I was free and clear of cutting for over 2 years and then slipped one day, that doesn't make me hopeless, just human, we're not perfect. We all make mistakes, we all have problems. Everyone does something for one reason or another.

I dont think that this is an answer...I am new here and i just wanted to everyone to know how i am...I am 19 years old and i have been cutting since i was 14. It first started when my grandpa died of lung cancer...I thought that it was my fault because the way that i felt was I felt that i could have done something more to prevent his death. Now i see otherwise. I had to go to a crisis center when i was 16 and i guess that it helped in a way. I havent cut in like 4 months but nowadays with the shit that has been going on i feel more and more tempted to cut. I have people around me telling me that they are here for me and not to cut but when i get alone it just seems like all i see is things to cut with. I used alot of things like scissors and i even broke one of my favorite cds to cut myself with. It got so out of hand one time i took the end of my pencil in school and just kept cutting away at my chest! I know i am not the only out here and That is why that i am posting this now because I want to talk to people who know what it is like. And who have something in common with me. Anyways anyone can say whatever they like and i will listen...thanx

Brittany

Almost felt like relapsing today, but didn't, sigh, wishing i did, wishing i didnt think like that.

I dont cut as much anymore, but last sunday I cut my waist very deep and had a panic attack from all the bleeding. My boyfriend was crying as he held a towel over my wound... I hope I never cut again. I hate it....

I want to try to cut soon because you all know how much it hurts inside if you don't. But the thing that I have a fear to blood so I feel sick when I see it, I don't know if im just lucky or unlucky.

Srry I had to get this out

Well, if you get sick when you see blood, then tell like your friends or someeon. and don't try cuz if you do, you can't break the habit. trust me on this: don't dig yourself a deeper hole

I carved "Chris" into my leg because I love him a lot... I just wanted to share that. No one knows and it just on my mind... So.............. thanks p&q

I cutt my self with a tack. i cut my left arm.i just started two nights ago. My frends dont know. i know its a bad habbit. i just dont know what else to do. im so depressed. and i hate talken to people. i dont know what else to do. it scares me when i cut but i cant seem to stop my self. what should i do to stop. And dont say tell parents cuz that would end in a disaster.
please someone help me what should i do

If you just started two nights ago, then here's my advice:: STOP. NOW. While you're ahead. Because before you know it time is passing... and guess what? You're still cutting. So just stop right now.

It's hard. Trust me, I know it's hard. Just try to find an outlet. Anything. Read. Pick up a sport. Write. Do anything to keep yourself sidetracked.

Cutting is something that is not beneficial in any way. It took me three years to learn this. In the end, it just hurts you more. Cutting may relieve the pain for a little while, maybe an hour or two, but after that it still HURTS. All you've done is cut yourself and added a scar to your body. You haven't solved the problem at all.

If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. I've been in your situation personally and I wish I would've had someone to help me stop before I got down that path.

Lots of love.
- Steph.

Thankx to the person who gave me advice and i will talk to you if i ever need someone to talk to tahnkx a bunch

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nicole

I've tried rubber bands, and they help somewhat. what's left after you do it so many times, are big red welts that stay there for a day or two

If it is deep enough you can't get it to stop bleeding you should be on the way to the doc.

This may seem strange, because I don't know you Ashli, but I'm really concerned about you right now. I hope everything is okay. Did the bleeding stop?

You have soaked a towel and still bleeding? Go to the doctor.

No, be glad you said something, you've found strangers who care about you and give you the time of day. :)

You might think it is not so bad, but if it bleeds that much you could have clipped something, better safe than sorry. I worry because I know what the outcome can be, I wouldn't want to see anything worse happen, it would be a great shame.

I agree with beautiful chaos. You are a GREAT poet. I want to keep reading your new poems :)