All Cutting, self harm threads - post here #12

..I havnt cut in a few years...
My life was good and things were finally okay with family, friends, love..
Now My relationship with my boyfriend is causing me to have all these urges to do all the wrong things...
Once I gave up cutting, A few months later I became a pill addict..I am to this day && I have been for the past 3 years...
&& Now with me and my boyfriend going through so much...I get so afraid Ill overdose yet I cant stop...Im stuck between a rock && hard place..&& the worst part is the rock wont budge && the hard place wont get softer ='[