Dying Dream

Ever since I was a little girl I've wanted to have 3 beautiful babies with the love of my life.Now that I've found him and we're engaged,I found out something.I'm developing cervical cancer very quickly.Ethan and I are talking about trying to have a baby while I'm 100% sure I can but he doesn't know if that's a good idea or not.He wants to have a baby with me now but he's concerned about my health in other ways.

He says that he doesn't know if my body could handle being pregnant and giving birth so young.
He keeps bringing up the fact that I'm still in high school and it would be a lot of stress.He keeps bringing up money too.

I know he's right about everything but I know I could handle it.I just wish he would think about our future instead of thinking about here and now.

*tears* ='(

I made an apointment for sometime in the first week of Febuary.Right now thought I'm just talking to Ethan about because he's the one that has to okay it because he's going to be the father.I just wish he would understand.He wants to be a father and I know he'll make a great father but...I don't know...he's still if-ie about it :(

I know it would have a good childhood because Ethan and I are going to be great parents((if we ever get the chance))we both love kids and have a lot of patience.As for supporting the child,Ethan gets payed $15 per hour and he works a 40 hour week.So he's making $600 a week,give or take,& he just started working there but after a year or so he should be making around $30 per hour so we'd be doubling our money.That would be enough to take care of our baby.

I don't know what to do!I want a baby SO bad but Ethan's still stuck on my age...but age tell people if you'd be a good parent or not..it's just a number

Don't get too depressed or worry about this too much. That will just make things worse! And yes age is just a number but make sure you talk about all the possiblities with your doctor and Ethan. Do whats right for your health, you and Ethan, and even a child that you may have. Best of luck to both of you!

I'll try not to get too depressed and worried but that's kinda hard to do when you see your future crumbling right in front of you and there was nothing you did to cause it and nothing you can do to stop it

I'll try not to though

I'm gonna talk to Ethan about it some more tonight.

You've been focasing on you and your
fiance, but have you taken your parents point of view on the subject? although it's mostly bout you and him they need to know. You are pretty young but as you said you don't have much time and age doesn't matter if you're sensible enough to take care of a baby.If you're reallly want a kid and you're absolutly sure that you can pull it off in the best way for the baby then go ahead... as for your fiance he's conserned about you so tell him the facts, like if he's reallly sure he doesn't want a kid cuz it's his only chance and stuff like that.

Oh ya and you should check with a specialist before you try get pregnant... ask a doctor about side effects and stuff