Ever felt...

As though there was no longer anything to make you laugh? And have you ever been in love with someone but then you find out there engaged to your best friend? Yet you continue to move on with your life and find other guys yet something about him always makes you cry?

Mmm, because thats how I feel right now. It's as though I'm trapped but no matter how depressed I feel I continue to smile on the out side even if I dont want to? LOL! does that make any sence at all?!?!?!

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Wow thats makes sense. except im egaged to someone my best friend loves and i dont think i really love that person. i semi hate him but you know as long i keep smiling then no one has to know whats really going on right

Lol Yeah I suppose it's just that when I posted this I was crying my eyes out even though I'm going out with someone =/ which has now muddled up all my feelings LOL! And No its not okay to just keep smiling so know one knows whats going on...You shoudl confront him about that because it could lead to a bad relation-ship ( Sorry, I'm not trying to sound rude or anything if I came across that way) xxxx

Yeah but you know what, your life shouldn't rotate around ONE GUY. And your happiness should never ever be dependant on one single person. YOU are in control of your own happiness. Don't let anyone ever change who YOU are or how you view your life.

Im with * pushing the limits*--- i fell in love with a 13 yr old girl while i was 17... i know to everyone its wrong but i did and somewhat still do love her.
anywayz i moved on and so has she but we did make a deal that when she turned 17 we could try it again, and right now i dont think ill be able to keep that promise b/c im totally enthralled with my newest girlfreind so i dont know... point is there are so many poeple out their that could be right for you
don't let urself just dwell on one

Thank you guys so much, I know its a bit odd to say that you helped me even though you are people on the internet but ye you made an impact on my decision about him. I'm moving on now I've decided that I shouldnt be holding on to him because 1. I'm just hurting myself
2. obviously there are many people in this world and I can do better of without him and I CAN and I WILL find someone who is right for me.(as pushing the limits said)

Xxxxx

Good for you, smart girl.

I feel like that right now. it sucks.

Sorry about that waster fake smiles =[ I hope you feel better soon huni...

Good for you, smart girl
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LOL!! well thats a first! (being called smart =P) thanks ^^ xxxx