Behind the Reflection

Behind the Reflection of mine in the Mirror... i can only see the fake smile i can made to show the whole world im strong enough even deep whitin me im not...

Hmmm...

y did u say so?!!!

Wow... you such interesting person for me... where you from? i hope we shall see soon in the future!!!

You know i like you!!! i wanna know you more!!! what's your real name!!!

Wow i guest so... good luck...

What do I see? I'm not sure anymore... I sometimes confuse who I see with who I used to be...

Behind the reflection I see someone who hides behind her outer appearance to mask her insecurities and the hate she has for herself.

Behind the Reflection of mine in the Mirror...i can see myself becoming more and more like my mom everyday. i can see myself being unsatisfied, and i dont know if its due to my lack of abilitiy to connect or what. i can see my past and how i miss it so deeply and all the relationships with people i have had and how much they have morphed from something so beautiful to something so strange. i can see my future and how afraid i am of it.i can see that i give up too easily on what i want because i am afraid of hurting others. i can see that i am confused beyond being able to explain. i can see i am heading towards a mental epiphany/breakdown and i think it will be a burst of insanity followed by a pure state of awareness.

Ok im gonna read it...